Wednesday, November 17, 2010

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Monday, November 8, 2010

Mix It Up Monday: Flying Catterpillar- Madonna's Child

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For a very brief spell I was courted by Lamar. He said "I hate books. I don't know when’s the last time I read a book." I should've known this one wasn't going far. He is handsome. He looks like he could be my brother…maybe he is. I don't know my mother in the physical form and every time I ask somebody about how she was when her mud looked like it was melting, they always give me the same spill about how dead people are so sweet. I know very little about my mother and the little that I do know is all good stuff.

Ma Sanchez always says “baby, yo motha was such a sweet heart and boy could she dress, she used to love shopping at that thrift store that used to be ova dere’ on Mulberry street, if Pat was anything she was different, she loved to be different.”

Pappy always says, “yeah ya moms didn't have many girlfriends, there was Cynthia and ummm what's that lady's name? she used to always hang with her but I forget her name, ask Ma Sanchez she should know the lady’s name; but yeah, ya moms was quiet I guess that’s where you get it from, she always kept to herself; now she was easygoing but, once you crossed her it was over that's that bull in her - she was a Taurus… she always had a book in her hand; she was silly, I remember I tried to teach her how to drive and she jus kept playin around, the sista can't drive i guess that’s where you get it from; oh, and she was always on the bus boooy, shoot I met her on the bus, she was standin' there lookin' all cute wit ya sista Frenchy... I memba for her birthday i surprised her and baked her a cake and she cried, that was touching...yeah you had a sister name Yasheekah and she died before you were born…when I was in a cast and I couldn't really get around too tough ya moms brought me a card and a minature toy car, the card said if i was rich i would buy you a mercedes.”

And my Aunt Tone always told me about how my moms used to work at Bamburgers, the old Macys downtown Newark and how mom took her to get her first real grown up bathing suit. That’s all I know about my motha…that’s all I know…

My mother is me. legs and all minus the bull tendency. I'm a Leo, we try to keep the peace but, if you crossed me I won't talk to you for a spell, then i'll begin to feel guilty and want you to smile and laugh with me again, so i'll hunt your attention with my charismatic leo ways - I never thought I was a typical Leo until I got mad with someone. yeah, so everything sounds jus like me, all the good stuff, but i want to know the juicy stuff. Lord knows I got me some secrets. Like I’m 23 and a virgin, Like I still feel guilty for playing show me yours and I’ll show you mines with my fake cousin Arty in the closet. Like I still feel guilty for letting the boys in the back of the class see my underwear in first grade. Like I want to get fucked something gentle. Like I eventually liked the way it felt when Uncle Manny touched me and kissed me. I want to know the good stuff. Stuff like could this young man that hates books really be my brother? Heavens, he may be my brother by both my mother and pappy. You know pappy got the baby in Virginia, Tangenika? She 17 and pappy ain't seen her since she was 1. You ask him why he ain't seen her and with a blank stare he replies "Sicely (that’s my half-sister Tangenika’s mother) done did me wrong Munch."

Lamar got them Chinese food and soy sauce lovin' eyes like me and pappy. And pappy's family is good with they hands. Uncle Ted was a drunk mechanic, Uncle Pete, Uncle Harold and cousin Dwight are all good with they hands. And Lamar is just a genius when it comes to computers. But Lamar’s not like pappy’s brothers, he's good with his hands but he's not like them. He’s reserved, it's in his bone structure, the way his cheek bones protrude across his face like the wood faces baba dawdou has hanging in his office at the community center. Uncle Ted and Pete resembled the masks a lil' bit but it was only by default. Their masks are no longer beautiful art from a distant land that could be displayed on a wall. They are more like replicas whose beauty gradually declined over the years.

Pappy refuses to debate with me. He thinks that age makes him wise. His old adage of children should be seen and not heard really fucked me up. I came here with gifts to share, but he don’t get it. He refuses to see my ma’s blood seeping out of my pen, he refuses to listen to my silence. He don’t get it…that blood clot in my ma’s brain exploded and leaked into the left tit that I was suckling on. Milk ain’t taste the same sense.

Pappy was young once. Really young. He used to wear an afro in the 70's to get girls but he wasn't down for the revolution. He took a job with the IRS. He always says thanks to affirmative action I got this job, yeah they were lookin' to diversify the IRS, so they came and got us brothers that sold insurance. Some of us didn't even have college degrees, but look at us some 15 years later and a lot of us are damn near close to making six figures a year. Every time I see pappy he's broke with a new gadget; big screen TV, that vacuum cleaner thing and that crunch contraption that's supposed to find new compartments for all that backed up fecal matter in his mid section. I don't find pappy mentally or spiritually attractive. He's handsome though, very handsome, like he got some history in him, like his grandfather lived all this new age shit. He got a soft heart, he cries at the drop of a dime. But that connection ain't there like it was in the life before. How can connections regress? Maybe I was a whore when I was mommy. I mean I went from the extremes of having a baby by Tommy, Frenchy’s father, the psychedelic pimp also known as Marlo the Latin lover of the seventies to having a baby by some linear, soft hearted skinny man that looked like his great grandma was snapped in National geographic with a wire tube hanging from her ear lobe to her top lip...No, I couldn't have been a whore. I look too young to have been a whore. I was good cuz I don't look a day over 16. Brother Dawdou, the director of Umoja community center on 11th street told me that if you look young in this life, then that means that you were good in your past life. So got damn it me and mommy wasn't no whore, maybe we were saints...but they fucked up too...ahhh, herbologist, like Monty from 14th and Mandala...helping lost souls get on Bobby Hemmitt's level all for a minimal fee. Maybe Pappy was a really good customer and he was nice to look at and he was just there, stuff happens sometimes, life gets lonely, even when the world says you're beautiful.

Needless to say Lamar stopped calling. I think it's because of mommy's picture that hangs on the wall in my room. The big one, the one that pappy says you went to New York and took especially for him. Lamar remembers the you that I used to be. When we were together he always would stare at that picture of you and ask me about you - the old me. I tried to answer all of his questions but I don't know much. I’m off balance. The last time that we were together, he looked up at your picture and he said that you are beautiful, mysteriously beautiful. He said "that half smirk and half smile makes her look like she's holding a secret." I was touched by his observant sensitivity, so I leaned into kiss him and he gently pushed me away...he looked disgusted and confused. We haven't spoke since...

By: Flying Catterpillar

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Mix It Up Monday: Djehuty Ma'at Ra- Scorpio Health

This weeks Mix It Up Monday post is about Scorpio health by Djehuty Ma'at Ra  If you would like to purchase herbal products or read up on great information, you can find more information on his  websiteTwitter, or Facebook

Scorpio Health

Scorpio - the Scorpion, is the 8th sign of the Western Zodiac. This sign happens to be my Ascendant or Rising sign making myself a Taurus with a Scorpio Rising.

Souls who incarnate between October 23rd and November 21st (some charts state November 22) are born under the constellation Scorpio.

Scorpio is a Water sign. In the language of astrology, this means Scorpions are people who are silent, mysterious types whose magic hypnotizes even the most determined realist. They have uncanny perceptions about people and as rich as the oceans when it comes to feeling, emotion, or imagination. These creatures are very sensitive, mystical creatures with memories that go back beyond time. They are emotional and intuitive.

Like their zodiacal and elemental brethren, Cancer and Pisces, Scorpions have the potential for the depths of darkness or the heights of mysticism and art.

Also like their zodiacal and elemental brethren, Scorpions are very emotional creatures. Emphasis on emotions is being stressed here to drive this point home. So if get with a Water sign, a Scorpio specifically, just know this in advance. And I'm not inferring it's a bad thing either. Not at all!

This sign (or people born under this sign) help finish projects started by others and are also very supportive and passive creatures. They have a very strong desire and inclination to please. Like other Water signs, they live through their emotions, imaginations, and intuitions.

Scorpio's astrological statement is "I desire!" This can cause Scorpions to be very materialistic creatures, especially if they don't get in tune with their spiritual side of existence.

In tune with their spiritual side, they are very balanced creatures; however, it is important for this sign to not cling to one extreme of the pole, being very spiritual to the detriment of their material side and nature, or being very material and to the detriment of their spiritual side. Balance is key here!

Traditionally pure Scorpions are said to have characters of a violent and irrational nature, are intense, powerful, and have magnetic attraction. They are generally dignified, reserved in conversation, easily hurt, quick to detect insult and easily moved by emotions.

Keywords that describe this sign are: Sensitivity, Transformation, Mastery (especially self-mastery), Suspicious, Covert, Trauma, Self-destruction, Vindictive, Magnetism, Power, Sexuality, and Controlling.

Scorpio is traditionally the most sexual and most intense sign of the Zodiac. Befittingly, Scorpio rules the sex glands.

Scorpio corresponds to the astrological Eighth House, which deals with Regeneration, Death or Mortality, Inheritance, Taxes, Sex, and Metaphysics.

Scorpions do well in occupations dealing with health and healing (regeneration), death (morticians, undertakers, embalmers, etc.), inheritance (probate law), sex (sex therapist, sex instructor, sex educator, adult film star, etc.), and taxes (tax preparer, tax consultant, or even tax protestor after they become familiar with the goals and ideals of the American Tax Honesty Movement which boldly claim taxes on a person's income is unconstitutional).

Quadruplicity-wise, Scorpios are "Fixed." They share this trait with Taurus, its astrological opposite, Leo, and Aquarius.

Scorpio's polarity is "Feminine." Feminine in astrological language means withdrawn, passive, and receptive in nature. These people are introverts whereas the Masculine signs are extroverts.

Other "Feminine" signs include: Taurus, Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn, and Pisces.

Oxymoronically, Scorpio's ideal sign for marriage compatibility is Taurus, its astrological opposite. The reason why astrological opposites or polarities make the best soul mates or marriage partners (despite otherwise being an incompatible sign) is due to the fact that there are so many challenges when opposites signs connect, but when these challenges are overcome (as they are in time), you have two very balanced individuals. The opposite of conflict is harmony so polar signs arrive at harmony in the end and experience a very balanced relationship. I witnessed this myself with my parents, an Aries-Libra combination. Moms was an Aries and pops was a Libra. There were so many challenges in this relationship but it would later become balanced in the end.

Opposites signs help you to deal with your shadow side (or self) which manifests your negative traits. Your polar sign exposes you to hidden traits within yourself and help you to balance yourself, trait-wise. Your astrological opposite is your mirror upon which you can reflect upon.

Since your astrological opposite and hidden and negative self is Taurus, who better than a Taurus to help you overcome your shadow self and shadow traits? In the long run, Taurus is going to help balance Scorpio and vice versa, just as Aries is going to help balance Libra and as Virgo is going to help balance Pisces and so on.

Also, your astrological opposite is always in the element ranking immediately next to your own. Earth is closest to Water more so than it is to Air or Fire, so Earth signs are going to be more compatible with Water signs than Air and Fire signs as Air and Fire are further (farther, being technical with language here) away from Water.

After Earth signs, Water signs would be more compatible with Air signs and lastly, Fire signs.
We all are impacted by all the signs of the Zodiac and some of us who may not have a Scorpio Sun may have a Scorpio ascendant (such as myself) or a Scorpio moon.

In addition, you may have a few planets in Scorpio in your natal chart. All of the planets, signs, and houses represent archetypes that describe the Soul's consciousness because the Zodiac is nothing but a map of the Soul's journey through consciousness for purposes of Soul evolution.

In medical astrology, Scorpio governs the following bodily organs: genitals, reproductive organs, bladder, urethra, and rectum. There is a tendency with this sign to genital afflictions, venereal disease, rectal polyps, as well as sinus and adenoid trouble.

Scorpions are prone to the following diseases and disorders:
Sexually transmitted diseases
Uterine tract infections
Menstrual problems
Anal fissures
Crone's disease
Bladder infection
Uterine complaints (fibroid tumors)
Profuse sweating
Nasal catarrh
Pelvic inflammatory diseases
Intense body odor
Poisoned blood
Candida (yeast infection)

Because Scorpio is the polarity of Taurus, Scorpions can pick up health complaints commonly experienced by Taurus such as neck and throat problems and because Scorpio is also very prone to sinus and adenoid problems, Taurus in the chart during a time of sickness could enhance any troubles with the sinuses and adenoids.

Pluto, co-ruler of Scorpio along with Mars, rules regenerative cell growth as well as the revitalization of the mental faculties. The Chi force in this sign can overcome even the most serious and life threatening of illnesses.
As all 12 Zodiac signs have been assigned a cell salt that helps maintain the health of the particular sign and which the sign requires more of than any other sign or person, Scorpio too has a cell salt: Calcium Sulphate compounds that can assist the Scorpio in healing and maintaining optimal health and well-being include: Scorpio FormulaVenereal BusterCandida BusterYoni FormulaProstate FormulaBowel MoverSen-Fen FormulaColon FormulaParasite FormulaBlood & Lymphatic FormulaDetox TeaMoon Cycle Tea, and Sinus Formula.

Famous Sun sign Scorpions include:
Bill Gates, Ruby Dee, Larry King, Julia Roberts, Sean "Puffy" Combs, Lisa Bonet, Meg Ryan, Leonardo DiCaprio, Ethan Hawke, Jodie Foster, Ike Turner, Whoopi Goldberg, Joaquin Phoenix, Sally Field, Goldie Hawn, Kevin Kline, Grace Kelly, Matthew McConaughey, Bo Derek, Dylan McDermott, Demi Moore, John Cleese, Martin Scorsese, Linda Evans, Danny Devito, Ann Reinking, Jonathan Winters, Richard Dreyfus, Lauren Hutton, Burt Lancaster, Rock Hudson, Q-Tip, Mariel Hemmingway, Art Carney, Jane Alexander, Mike Nichols, Brian Keith, Elke Sommer, Dennis Miller, Bibi Anderson, Sam Waterson, Richard Burton, Hilary Clinton, F. Murray Abraham, Maria Shriver, Charles Bronson, Kate Capshaw, Michael Landon, Tatum O'Neal, Harry Hamlin, Rickie Lee Jones, Henry Winkler, Bonnie Raitt, KD Lang, Roy Schieder, Neil Young, Lyle Lovett, Ruth Gordon, Nadia Comaneci, Ed Asner, Brenda Vacarro, Sir Francis Bacon, Pablo Picasso, Helen ReddySam Shepherd, Lee Strasberg, Marla Maples, Prince Charles, Art Garfunkel, Ted Turner, Voltair, and Jason Christopher (a/k/a Godson).

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